he’s no friend of mine.. spouse maybe… but no friend. How he’s so smug and non chalant, so short and rude. he only smiles when he wants something i.e. sex he only entertains my conversation when he can benefit from it. I just don’t know why I stayed, i want to leave. i know he’s laughing at me, him and his friends with their texts, messages and emails. him and his women with their LOLs and :-)s I know he thinks im a joke… i dont want him and all the emotional clutter that comes with this so called marriage… i don’t want the fear, worry, hurt, pain, memories- i don’t want them he doesn’t want me- we both seem to be settling and it shows. oh yeah it shows! clear as day- there’s nothing between us except the tense air stiff with pending destruction ready to crumble at every move… there’s nothing between us- no more.
-excuse my tantrum
